blessed

I been currently seeing this guy and we been happy for a while but i just found out that he is sick i mean is not life threating but sometimes idk how to act sometimes i feel like i act like am his mom but i just want to make sure his good 80 percent i feel like i threat him normal and the 20 i act like a mom i mean i like him might say love him he makes me happy and it doesnt bug me that his not typical but lately his been getting sick and has to get operated again am scare but i know i want to be thier for him and i havent admitted am scared really scared i tell him am praying for him i do believe in my prayer but am still human and i just dont want to lose him

Can't sleep

I am lacking sleep but yet I can't sleep weird.

Ramble

I tend to ramble alot I dot know why my babe tell me sometimes to be quite but I can't

Learning

I want to learn to make cheese cake yummy

Open house

Tommorow is open house for my kids at work . They all excited I member when they would say ther was open house in school I would hide papers don't want my parents to meet my teachers

Take care of ur body

I lean I re to eat healthy so I wouldn't go through this pain again horrible.

Feeling funny

I feel really week ad very high I hunk it cuz all the shot I got and throwing up.

Long time

Long time ago I wanted to be a doctor but I don't think I can deal with patients like me .

So while I was waiting

While I was waiting for them to come give me another shot of I don't know what . The girl next to me seem to be on some good shit because she keep saying te pain I gone and then smack herself so I think I should o had what he had so I could be put to sleep

A lot to do

Tommorow I have dentist appointment which suck I hate the dentist to I feel like they are shocking me while they cleaning my teeth I get anxiety.

Missing

I think I miss my cousin so much she went to el Salvador for a week an has no phone. I thought I wouldn't miss her but I do and I new her the most right now

Mothers day

I am planning to take my mother eat and give her new earring. I think it not enough though she deserve more but I can't give her more I should write her a song .

I am a cry baby

Everytime I am sick or in pain I tend to act like a five year old. So I think I should just get drug a lot if I am ever sick or in horrible pain or just knock me out

Pain thought

So if giving birth is like kidney stone pain I don't want I have any children I just would like to adopt because I probably die .

Air

So I have two years driving and I still can't put air on my tires that is horrible had to ask someone to help.

Boyfriend

My baby was really caring for me today at the hospital even though I was Ina btchy mood and keep being mean he was able to comfort me when I wanted to die

Car

I want a new car but not happening.

.... Pain

So I just got back from hospital felt I was going to die for a minute but it just kidney stone are back wack

Ink

I really want a tattoo but my mother would kill me an I think since I just went through dramatic pain I shoul not get one

Air

So I have two years driving and I still can't put air on my tires that is horrible had to ask someone to help.

Blessed❤

I love my job I get to go everyday and spend 8 hours with children. I mean yeah they can be a handful and sometimes behave horrible but I lie each and everyone one of them try make me laugh and put a smile on my face when I feel down. Now that it the end of the year it makes me sad that I will no longer be with them but I know that I will remember them because they left a little piece of them in my heart.

Tiredness.,,

I don't know why but lately I been so tired

Just a simple smile

Sometimes you don't know what people are going through and sometimes just a simple smile can brighten a day

...tired

Long day I need some sleep have a long drive home .

Love yourself❤

"If you aren't good at loving yourself, you will have a difficult time loving anyone, since you'll resent the time and energy you give another person that you aren't even giving to yourself." -Barbara De Angeli
My thoughts... I think that this is true a lot of people are out their looking for love but sometimes they can't find some one because they always have this insecurity with the person. That is because they don't think that they are not good enough they don't have to say it aloud but it true be happy with the way you are the person you areand that then things will fall into place beginning with yourself loving yourself then to love another.❤

Ugh time change ....

So last night I had trouble following asleep so when I finally did go to sleep it was like twelve something. Then this morning I had to wake up at 5 meaning I slept like four hours horrible and am running on coffee horrible feel so sleepy.

WOMaN RULE!!!!!

Todays is - women national day"
Dare to dream of your great success.
Become intimate with those things which deeply motivate you
and regularly work toward the realization of that mission." I am happy to be a women ;) n you ?

Life

So today I had some terrible new I friend past away it funny how life is it take 9 months to make a life but a second to finish it. Alan we will always remember you. You were always a great friend knew how to put a smile in my face. A total goof ball I can only say good things about u u will be missed dearly R.I.P you u will always have a place in our hearts .

Miracle of life :)

So today my plan was to go to class like every Monday when my neighbor tell me my water broke I was like what . So I broke like ten driving laws today. Her boyfriend couldn't get home in time so she asked me to be with her in the delivery I was praying for someone else to show up from her family but they didn't. We went in at. 3 and she had the baby at 10:45 I think during the delivery I was scream the most. At the beginning I was like gross but after all the craziness a baby boy was born Jacob Jr. GArcia. I think I love kids but don't want to go through all that pain beautiful thing to experience yet painful. A curse thanks to eve haha

Addict hahah

So I am in love with my phone haha and with all this apps especially with draw something it so entertaining haha..

Unexpected call :)

It been three years since one of my close friend got locked up I hadn't heard from him no phone call no letter nothing at all. My phone rang to ad it said blocked called I never answer those but I remember I had a new number and only a couple of people have it do I decide to answer it. It was Aaron I missed him so much and surprising I still recognize his voice. I think friends come and go but true friends stay no matter what the circumstance is and am glad he has stayed in my life well tried haha. A month to go and I get to see him again. I also have notice I have more guy friend than girl -___-

My life...

Most of my life I always felt alone I seem to be neglected by my parents in love and even growing up and with my relationship with my ex boyfriend it is had to even believe in love because we had and still have the hate love relationship but I truly didn't understand what love was because apparently the people who loved me hurt me. I realize at my job that he only real live us a child love it genuine. I lived getting hugged and being told teacher I love you and thank you I never really had that out of no where getting I love you and feeling it in thier hugs that they mean it. I don't know how mother or father neglect their children from live the way my parents did. I would love to have my share of kids to love them. My time will come for me to be a mommy to someone and love them <3 love my job

Love/ regret....

-Francois De La Rochefoucauld : "A woman often thinks she regrets the lover, when she only regrets the love."

My thoughts... So I found this quote interesting because I didn't see this this way I think with my ex boyfriend when I thought about my relationship I saw it as me hating him "the lover" but I did by hate "the love " we had because those three years where the best I don't regret anything I went through if I had to do it over again I would still have redo it again knowing the outcome of a broken heart. So I think we shouldn't hate our ex because one point in life you still love him through all the pain he or he caused .

Another great night....

Well what can I say I feel like am in lala land hehe. It been a while since I felt like this again and for once I feel like am not being rushed into a relationship am getting to know a person for who they are and what we have in common. I will not say his different because everyone is different but his one of a kind. :)

Sick...

Woke up sick today booooo !!!!! I can barely talk and my throat is itchy good thing no runny nose I hate those hopefully am better tomorrow.

Tired ...

What else can I say but it was a long day. Woke up took brother to school went back home did homework . Then I went to the post office put gas which Is horrible thinking about taking bus haha because it is going up . I drove to work . At work we had art time played with kids talk about cow boys and girls we ran around. Then after I got out rush to pick up brother took him to dentist handle business their. After we paid bill. After that pick up mom went to do taxes came home cooked and clean did more homework and now one for sleep. Plus I hunk am getting sick darn .

A fun night to remember.

Today my class was canceled ad I didn't want to go home so I called a friend of mine if he wanted to hang out and he said yeah come over. So I went and I had not had any fun in a long time since me and my high school sweet heart broke up. I mean I dated guys before but thier was always something wrong with them that I didn't like I felt like I could not be my self. So we were watching the history channel talk about Saturn I think haha wasn't really paying attention. I know this guy from middle school and it funny how we never really talk till now. . We started talking and then all of a sudden boom I get hit in the face with a the pillow. We had a one hour pillow fight and I felt like a kid again I felt free to be silly and I couldn't stop laughing. It was a good night I did not even have to go to a party or club it was just hanging out.

My lil brother ...

Spend my day with my little brother it had been a while I been so busy at work and school that I hadn't had time for him. He so excited to spend the day with me. My relationship with my brother is very good I think we have the mother son bond and best friend bond all together. My brother was born when I was ten I was really happy. But I also didn't know that my life would turn around when he came my dad left us shortly after he was born as my mother had to work night shift so I would take care of him when I got home from school. My brother was two when we put him in head start program and when he got out he would come home to me I would cook and help him with his Hw and even till today. I basically sometimes felt like a mom had to stay late night to take care of him when he was sick. I think later I kinda resistant him in one point because I couldn't go out much since I had to take care of him but now my feelings change about it. I love him and the time I spend with him his my everything. Today was a great day he was do happy that we got to go to park and ride a bike and eat McDonald's and buy him his new shoes and his skinny jeans. I am blessed to have him in my life he change it for the better.

Just remembered!!

Out with my friends tonight and someone was talking about their thoughts and how they felt and I remembered I hadn't blog so hope everyone enjoying Friday and 4 day weekend. Enjoying my night with the people I enjoy hire company :)

Break up!!

-Unknown : "I just broke up with someone and the last thing she said to me was 'You'll never find anyone like me again!' I'm thinking, 'I should hope not! If I don't want you, why would I want someone like you.'."

MY THOUGHTS...
So recently I just broke up with this guy am I was dating and he told me that I would never find no one like him and like this quote say that what I thought so in the long run. If someone breaks up with you it because you guys are not meant I be so you might thing you are the best person for then but reality even if it hurts that you weren't right for them and they had to let go of you yeah everyone is special in thier own way you might have some quality someone likes and other might hate it and it's okay for that. Mr or ms right will come eventually.

Someone Their?

-Orson Scott Card : "And enough for me that when my hand touched your shoulder, you leaned on me; and when you felt me slip away, you called my name."

MY THOUGHTS...
This reminded me of my best friend when I need him the best he is their for me. Their is always a person who is going to be their for you whether it your mother, father, sister, brother or friend. They will never let you fall they will try their best to catch you but if you do fall they will bring you back up. It is good to let our feeling out don't keep them in. Even if you think you don't have someone to tell write it in a letter or just say it out loud you will feel much better.

Unexpected valentine

-Heraclitus Of Ephesus : "A hidden connection is stronger than an obvious one.
MY THOUGHTS....
Well my best friend surprised me with flowers and now were heading to dinner. So sometimes you look for someone some where else while the person who cheerish you the most can be right next to you without you knowing or thinking that their is something more than a friendship for ten years and not seeing it until one day you realize that their can be more than a friendship and that can be the best love because you didn't go looking for it. So happy valentines day or single awareness day to some :) ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

Through the Storm

-Unknown : "Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass...it's about learning how to dance in the rain."

MY THOUGHT....
DOn't let your challenges stop you from doing anything you want. Nobody said life was easy because if it was everyone would be happy all the time and people would be where they want to be. Remember after a storm the sun comes out it will never rain forever. kEep your head up high. I know it hard but the outcome can be a good thing.

Nice day!!!!!

-John Ruskin : "Sunshine is delicious, rain is refreshing, wind braces us up, snow is exhilarating; there is really no such thing as bad weather, only different kinds of good weather."

MY THOUGHTS .....
Might be a little cold today. The sun might be hiding behind the clouds but still it a beautiful day. Don't let the weather determine if your having a good or bad day. Have a positive attitude!

Be your own motivation

People come and go ... They can be here for you or they won't but on thing for sure is you can overcome something on your own...

Love

-Leo F. Buscaglia : "A loving relationship is one in which the loved one is free to be himself -- to laugh with me, but never at me; to cry with me, but never because of me; to love life, to love himself, to love being loved. Such a relationship is based upon freedom and can never grow in a jealous heart.

MY THOUGHTS.....
If your able to be urself with that person your love and you are not acting like something your not... If you can be dork or silly and not get laughed at but laugh with them then that the person who sees u for u but not the other shell u have the way u look but the person you are <3